20060723
Okay will be gone to thailand tomorrow morning haha, many people thought i already flew liao, well apparently i guess they postponed it for one dae to save cost, damn -_-
Damn stupid la, i soaked all my new shirts and jackets that i was given and den the colour of the jacket faded off. tmd haven even wear once yet, already like that, guess i gotta wear last yr's stuff.
Anyway yea i will be bringing my hp to thailand, i checked it out, any sms or calls made by u guys on my handphone is normal charge for u all. As for me, i can receive your sms for free, but i pay a bomb if u call. So try not to bomb me everytime, I will only accept bombs (nearly $2 a min, tmd) once in a while, but anyway SMS should do la haha...
I am pretty stressed out now, not because of the comp but because of the BLOODY EOM. PLEASE SET A REASONABLE DEADLINES U NOE WHO
OTHER CLASSES HAVEN EVEN THOUGHT OF THE EOM LA. Ah basket la
Aniway still must pia finish the eom by tonight,
And i haven pack
Tmd tmd die liao die liao.
Must send sms to wish me luck! comp on thurs afternoon :D:D:D
But dun blame me if i never reply, 60cents ah sorry.
My father will slap me to africa if he noe i anihow use :D sorry
So guys have fun back here while i have fun back there! And when i come back, must help me in my studies okay 75, i dun wanna play angel and mortal with u all next year.. basket. i will jump man, LOL.
-Smiles :D
posted @ 7:46 PM
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for so long have i been living in denial,
surpressing my emotions...
will i regret or will i not?
A life that have been filled with so much commitments,
more than i can ever handle...
what for? to occupy myself and trap that wandering mind?
Perhaps its true but even i do not know why...
so near yet so far...
can emotions be completely surpressed?
If so why do i still long for you?
Loving and possessing someone perhaps are totally 2 different things.
(Possessing: In this context, i am refering to the act of getting together with someone, it isn't something thats always very negative.)
We do not love because we want to possess someone and attempt to keep her/him by ourside forever, but instead we may want to possess our loved one because we truly love him/her, because we want to be there when she needs someone, and because we are willing to keep her sheltered from the rain at the expense of wetting ourselves.
But can we love and not possess him/her...?
Of course we can, but regrets may come in time to come
(1st outcome)
On the other hand,
Love has to start from a friendship and progress into love
That itself is actually a risk.. to take.
And for me a risk too large to take...
What if one day we lost the chance to even talk to the ones we love
What if one day we no longer can see the smile on his/her face
We all know how bad that would feel don't we?
(2nd outcome)
And of course the last outcome, you guys live happily ever after like some fairytale story... haha so cliche.. but its something like this la...
(3rd outcome)
There could be 3 outcomes.
If we do nothing about it and just sit and let the opportunity slip by, the cold truth will dawn upon u in time to come and regrets would start setting in (outcome 1)
If you take the risk, there is a chance that u would hit (outcome 2) which is the undesirable one or perhaps hit (outcome 3) the one we all long for.
So if u just sit there and let ur ass rot for the rest of ur life, u would perhaps stay on the ladder forever and regret.. but if u take the risk u wld either reach the top or probably drop right down. However, at the very end when u look back in future, it doesn't matter how many times u have dropped off that ladder.. instead what matters most is whether u have reached the top at the very end.
Just a view for u to ponder abt. Live a life without regrets....its better to choose the road of uncertainty den to choose the road that would lead u to nothing but regrets.
easier said than done of course, but press on my friends...decide soon and only make the decision yourself for only you know how much u actually love him/her
How ironic it is when i myself know what i am suppose to do and yet i am still walking on the path of regret... how i wished... i have the courage...to speak the 3 magical words...
posted @ 9:22 AM
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20060714
Positive energy... i am really overwhelmmed now... so damn surprised that things can just change so suddenly, things can change so unexpectedly... the A div were suppose to lose this yr... and a miracle actually happened .... most of them fought really hard on the finals and smashed their pb... though I was one of the unfortunate exceptions who didn't do my personal best... trust me i am really really proud of you guys very.... whats most important is that the team as a whole will win.... not whether i break a record or break a leg or break someone haha.
Suddenly i see the fighting spirit in a team that i used to think didn't even exist... a team worth fighting for ...
I may consider fighting for it one more year..
just discovered that the record holder for my event is actually a retainee.. yea he was 19. Yep... so i guess.. i shld just let the past go and be satisfied with what i attained in this yr's nationals... i am happy of the results i achieve .. (:
So most probably nicholas yong... will have one more chance to break the nat rec. next yr if he continues...
and
Hes not gonna just break it, he'll smash it upside down.
16.07m ---> -[{+18.07m+}]-
Quadruple champ we can do it, all 4 divisions... it has never happened since 8 yrs ago... let the magic begin . (:
Fight on my lovely warriors
impossible is nothing
posted @ 7:51 PM
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20060710
sometimes i wished that I would have missed the record by more than just this little bit,
sometimes i just wished that it was bright and sunny,
sometimes i just wished that a stupid thing like the damn tree wasn't in the way.
sometimes i wished that i have not threw further than what i have threw before this competition.
sometimes i just wished that today's distance would already be my pb so that i would not expect so much..
For only by expecting less, will i be truly happy... ...
Yep so my game is over, mission is half accomplished, but i shld be contented i noe... yea...u shld be yong (:
Thanks for the support everyone it would not have been possible to mentally fight against the terrible state i was in before nationals without your help...
Thanks people for always being there to support me, and thanks for the lovely smses this morning which really helped.
am feeling pretty sick again, will blog abt nationals more in detail soon yea... cya guys
posted @ 11:56 PM
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20060708
something bad happened.
But now is not the time to groan and moan about it...
its the time to take this as a challenge, overcome this obstacle,
and perform even better on monday...
Its mind over body.
Free your mind, Win the game. (:
posted @ 9:29 PM
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20060705
well... didn't go school today and felt tons better, i noe i will recovery fully by tomorrow, yes u will! will urself yong! haha retarded
Oh however, i went training ytd and today too... yea sounds mad but no choice la... my ultimate goal is to blast a damn far shot on mon morning, not to get well. Well but u still have to get well to perform well la duh haha...
Anyway at least i see some light in ytd and today's training..strangely haha... i got back to my form when i am sick... perhaps because my coach said that my muscles are more relaxed and muscle tension has always been one of my greatest problem...
Yep was delighted to see a couple of shots landing on the 16m mark without blasting every inch of my strength. national record is 16.07!!
U NOE U CAN SHATTER THAT..
NOW DO IT AGAIN ONE LAST TIME BEFORE THIS CHAPTER OF UR LIFE ENDS
U NOE U CAN YONG,
YES I NOE I CAN.
Okay sorry i noe i am talking to myself, i noe i am freaking my readers out
but i noe its a routine that works. :D
So Sorry ppl if i sounded a little arrogant.
TAG REPLIES:
steffi: haha yea i am concentrating on nationals hard! and u concentrate on glorifying jay chou through various means, LOL.
sophia: haha if i threw 15.9KM thats about 1000 times of the national record... even a normal bird cant fly that far :P haha.. thanks anyway CT REP
Claire, ivan, yuntian: thanks for the encouragement, i will do my best! and please release more birds on the morning of my nationals!
Mind over matter.
you are destinied to succeed
posted @ 10:52 PM
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20060701
Blocks are over, at least I am more sane and alive right now to blog a pretty decent entry... Yep..Finals for Nationals is in abt 8-9 days ... But have been down with a minor flu for the past 2 days... Yea its minor cause i was fighting it like crazy, and I had to sleep early to prevent it from worsening...which means gg for block test... LOL.. aiy over liao la what done's done... Just... RECOVER FASTER haha...
Sorry guys if i have freaked some of u all out for the past few entries.... haha i know i am like driving myself crazy mentally and stuff over that comp.... but . ya it means a lot to me la... this is my very last time competiting for the school. I need to end this chapter of a life with a beautiful finishing, yeah.
I have prepared myself quite adequately for the past month... yea sadly it has only been the past month... I guess i would have been in a better state and felt 10 times more secure if i could have prepared for it wholeheartedly since the start of the year...yea.. but..again, whats done is done haha..
I have always remembered that nationals has always been a very very special day for me... especially... when i was in sec 2 haha... i totally loved it ... but that time i was pretty inexperienced and stuff...and was seriously a mad man that time... yea... u feel great when u noe that ur efforts have finally paid off... But I was never truly happy for long. Each time a comp was over, I never celebrated, I would always set my hopes even higher for the next time, regardless of the results I obtained, regardless of the magnitude of the competition. There is alwaes this desire inside me that just wants more and more...
Got my 'retribution' thru a bad injury after nats, when i refused to rest after nats and continued training immediately nats was over.
Rested for 1 and a half years... and was back at sec 4 march. trained carefully for another 3 mths as i was seriously quite weak and fragile, this time without the burning passion&determination in sec 2.
... managed to stabilize the injury in june, but i lost yea... lost by 3 cm to the first guy due to various reasons... It was unfair in some aspects which i may mention after nats this yr.. yea...but i still accept the defeat, accept the fact that i am 2nd...
It was tough to accept the truth, I tried to hold back the tears really hard, succeeded intially... but once i went back to the spectator stand and saw the coacha nd the team... i just broke down and cried for the first time in public...
I felt that i have really really let them down ...
i shld have put in more effort
Nevertheless I have learnt much from both experiences and have actually learnt much more from the 2nd one...Many of the times we are too concerned about the results and we tend to ignore the process..
Oh Yea... and thanks for the words of encouragement each of u gave on the morning of my nationals, yep yep i can still remember it till now.
it really meant a lot alot alot alot to me... haha... i had like 5 times more wishes then what i received during birthdays or christmas haha... interesting right.. lol
Ya so dun need to wish me on my bdae, But must wish me on the morning of the nationals okay! haha LOL
Though Defeats in life are a thousand times harder to accept as compared to successes, we learn a thousand more things thru defeats.
Thanks for all the experiences,
And thank u readers for listening and reading the entry up to here. :)
One last chance, treasure it yong (:
posted @ 7:36 PM
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